I realize that my motivation for losing weight is, for the first time in my life, not rooted in vanity. Its based on being able to keep up with my kids, being around for them, and feeling good while I'm doing it. Its not to attract anyone, its not to prove anything to anyone...its completely selfish. I want to see my kids grow up.

Today has been pretty good. I've eaten sanely and been as active as possible. I wish I didn't have to take narcotics to keep my knee pain under control, they make me so loooopy. But its better than not being able to get around at all.